phone died. and chris is home now
Dag nabbit.
he's cooking dinner but I have to give him step by step directions
I need to go put on my pjs now I guess.
ttyl
I have to pick out a nail design for my pedicure. Want to help since you seem to be so good at fashion? lol
Strawberries?
I just did watermelon though. I get them done every two weeks. I was thinking palm trees since I'll be down the shore.
Lol that's cool.
i wanted little cocktails on my toes.. but I can't find a pic
Yeah I read on Tom golliti's blog that there are a few people still interested. The drama just never ends in jersey does it?
But all in all they will not move the team.
I hate planning things I planned a small dinner for a person at work who is moving to Boston, with just the group of people we eat lunch with. I was just being nice. Based on what he wanted I picked a BYOB Sushi place near work. I think everyone invited complained about something.
Yeah I know. It sucks. But u have to just tell them it's this persons fav place or whatever. People will always bitch.... Wait until you get the bill! Lol
oh i know.. i already heard the money complaints.
Yeah I hate that shit.
Or when they order they order one thing and then say they aren't hungry.
lol.. I've never had that happen!
but i can only imagine..
we usually all split the bill.. but if i see someone order soup.. I will say.. oh so and so just ordered soup.. they should pay less
somehow I'm always putting in more anyway
like people who forget about tax and tip
or they only tip like $1 when I always tip 20%
It sucks. Yeah but so and so ordered soup just cause they are cheap. Lol Yup. I agree. I've been there lots of times.
today's money complaint was.. I only have $33 is this place expensive?
I'm like um.. i really don't know.. Someone was like it's sushi it's prolly $7 a roll.. I'm like most sushi places are $10 a roll. He's like WhATTT? I'm like ummm yeah a tuna roll is usually like $6 or $7 but a hand roll is usually $10-12.
Which this place could be more idk.
people complained that the last sushi place we went to was too small
this place is bigger. AND honestly the other BYOBs in this area were all $35 for pasta.
or very eclectic food
It's Bergen County
Everyone should be like me and just be nice because it's for someone else
I agree. You should just say there is a special place for anyone that has a problem: it's called Mickey D's and they can enjoy the fucking dolls menu.
Dollar.
OH AND we picked tonight.... the guy's last day here because one of the people going is Muslim. And yesterday Ramadan ended. He can't eat until 8:30 and that was too late for the guy leaving. So we picked today so the Muslim guy can go. Now.. I haven't heard from the Muslim guy.
Well the guy leaving will just know the Muslim guy is a douche. Lol
prices went out for the outdoor games.. you have to be a season ticket holder as of right now
lol.. i just sent out the address to the place... and I get questions back about what else is near it as a landmark.I told everyone at lunch I have never been there and I would send out the address and I hope everyone knows how to use google maps or has a nav, or they need to put in a special request for me to provide them a crayon colored map.
i almost bought a season ticket package for last year. I wish my brother had a job.
So much shit happened at work today I couldn't even ask if I could have that week in september off.
He still doesn't?
of course not
unemployment is his job
don't even get me started
thunder and the sky is black. I think the world is ending
ugh this just reminded me.. i have to bring in my jeep
my sunroof leaks and the water runs fwd and through my interior light
last time it rained it poured through and into my stereo
now my radio lights don't work
this is the 3rd time this happened
Ugh. Get a Honda.
I've had it fixed twice
my loan is up in Dec. no car for awhile.
I'm looking fwd to my first NO car payment in 14 years?
15 maybe
True. It is a good feeling.
3 cars in 15 years
I've owned this the longest
You should be an automotive subject matter export for training videos....
expert.. not export
I never explained this to you.. .but for my former job we had "lists" that we work on. I guess college/trade disciplines is the better term
I had a few, but one of mine was automotive.
And now in my new role I have to go over any out of place costs that a vendor may be charging us.
I'm reviewing a quote from a video company for automotive videos.
They hire automotive SMEs (subject matter exports) to select the tools that will be showcased in each video, and to hang around on set to identify the tool and to make sure the actor and script is correct.
They get paid a lot.
That's cool. Id do that. Lol
You should look into writing assessment and educational content
How would I look into that? And I don't do no gooder when I ams righting wordz-
lol. At some point I'll have companies narrowed down, and can suggest them to you
you would need to learn some taxonomy and basic educational related stuff.. but that's the easy part
SMEs write content on their own time.
What would be my qualifications that I would need to prove I'm an expert?
it would prolly differ for each company.. and how we qualify SMEs is something we are going to be looking into. But, it would most likely be based more on writing a good question then your experience.
it really just depends. Sometimes people fresh out of school write a better question then someone with a phd.
Well I've taken a lot of tests so I'm used to questions. Lol
Most of the time it's because the content is mostly entry level stuff you learn early on.
I'm interested and please let me know more info about it
yep. when i have more info. Was just throwing it out there for now.
Thank you- And like i said I'd like to try that kinda thing. Especially if I can make decent money lol
and if I still have a job... we are going through a reorg.
Ugh- eh you are smart and gooder at your job so I'm sure u will be fine. Maybe get promoted!
it's a bad reorg. We are based in London, and a global company. London is basically ripping through us making major changes.
That's not cool.
nature of the business i suppose
I can't believe summer is almost over
Stop. Don't say that. Lol. I haven't even done anything that is summer like.
There is only 3 weeks left!
4 weekends with labor day
no time like the present.
why ugh? just make plans to do things. It's that easy.
I don't know what you want to do exactly that is summer like.. but just do it. at night.. on your off days. whatever.
Sooo the open thing... over.
Ughhhhh. What happened-?
I knew it was coming.. I felt it. He's been making offbeat comments. Then last night he was like beyond moody. I'm like. you seriously need to tell me what's wrong....
and there it was... It really started to come out in a I'm using him sort of way.. that just wasn't good.
U are using him-?
It's his insecurity. He feels like I would just be with him for support.
I understand where it comes from. I just wish it wasn't there.
Then he said... "So if I let you do this and you get pregnant.... I'm going to make you get a dna test..." etc... Besides the reality of that... that's what happened to Chris when he was young.. And I know how it fucked him up..
And I just couldn't make him go through something like that.
Yeah. Understandable.
So I did my best not to argue.
And he said he feels like I'm just going to cheat.
And I said.. I'm fine with all of this if you make an effort.
Does he see and understand why you would?
-meaning he's gotta step up.
An effort to take me out without direction from me. An effort to care about what would turn me on.. etc.
We talked for awhile and he agreed to that.
Well I hope that works for you. And for him. It's not just about taking you out for you. But it would be good for him.
It's going to take awhile.
I told him I need him to plan a date...
Funny enough we have like no free time for the next few weeks.
Good thing is your trying. And if he doesn't try- then u know he's got no leg to stand on about makin you happy. And not to say you will but it may happen where u step out for that fun/passion/excitement type of thing.
Btw- I like the profile pic... A lot.
lol thanks
I love eyeshadow
I have to shut down for the day. I'm at work late trying to figure something out. I give up.
I think if you write back it goes to my phone now.. idk.. I work in technology I hate using it
Lmao. Yeah I like chicks in eyeshadow too. Lol
And I'm sorry u didn't get to experience the openness of the open relationship.
Lol. It's ok. I wasn't running out looking, so I guess that's on me
Lol- still u gotta be like- damn...! Lol
A little lol
busy busy busy day... sorry
Don't be. It's good to be busy. Makes the day go fast.
I promised my dog I'd go for a walk after work. She'll seriously be by the door barking at her leash when I get home. I'm exhausted.
AND I have to shop and pack for Point.
Oh and ever since you told me peppers don't agree with you.. they haven't been agreeing with me. Thanks... I live on peppers lol.
Lmao. Hey now. I was talking about me! Just cause you wanna be cool like me doesn't mean u gotta do what I do.
This happens all the time.. I get sympathy symptoms or something
try telling me some good stuff so I can have that happen lol
Ummm. Well uhhh. You know I'm gonna be thinkin about dirty stuff. Lol
lol.. gee thanks
What-?? That's a good thing.
Awe come on- lol
what?
lol
You get more out of that than I do, lol.
Jeez. U asked for good fortune and I offered dirty good fortune. Lol
That's a stretch I think.
Damn. No faith. Lol
i need to do shopping and pack.. both of which i don't enjoy
Hey! Did u get all ur packing and shopping and stuff done?
Most of my shopping none of my packing. I guess I'm doing that tonight, and tomorrow night. I have plans though tomorrow night with friends, so I won't have a ton of time.
And I want to leave early Sat to avoid traffic.
I do have some shopping to do tonight though.
What do u have to shop so much for?
Well yesterday I picked up paper products for the shorehouse. But since I coupon, every week I look at what's on sale at several stores and if it's a good deal with a coupon I buy it. I stockpile and buy 3 months supply of things.
I don't use paper plates at home, and at $2 a roll, I'm not brining my Viva paper towels to the shorehouse.
So there were things I needed.
I also run out twice a week for veggies/fruit. It spoils quickly so I don't buy too much at once.
Oh ok. Are people chipping in for common things for the shore house?
We will do shopping when we get there for food. Though I'm bringing stuff I specifically eat.
I just picked up plates, toilet paper, and paper towels really.
I'm an over packer. I like to have everything.
Lol it's not like you're going off the grid ya know. Lol
I just like to be prepared and not have to run out for anything.. simple things... like a coffee maker, and a toaster
I require them lol
I forgot to look if the house had them.
Yeah those things are pretty important. Lol
They are. My bread needs to be toasted or it tastes gross. And I need coffee. It's the only thing I actually drink.
U drink other things other than coffee though right-?
i started drinking milk again, but only 1/2 a cup a day.
I drink water after I exercise.
And I sip on decaf iced tea at home.
I am really bad about taking in fluids.
Yeah it's pretty important. Lol
Even my milk is in coffee lol. I add 1/2 cup of milk and ice to reg or decaff coffee.
to get in fluids I drink decaff coffee
black no sugar or sometimes a tbsp of creamer
Well if it works for you then go with it.
I don't know if it "works". It's not enough. I just hate drinking.
Well for me coffee makes me feel full. So it works well to kill the munchies. Lol
I will do a skinny caramel mach from starbucks as a snack.
it's 11g protein and 140 calories for a grande.
decaf mostly unless it's early in the AM or before a work out.
I try to take in caffeine before a workout. It's good for it.
How is there 11g of protein in there? Yes it is but it bloats me so I don't like to drink that too soon before a workout.
Because it's an espresso drink.. so it's mostly milk. When I say before I drink it an hour to hour and a 1/2 before. I don't eat or drink about 1/2 hour before workout.
With my stomach being tiny it hurts to exercise if there is anything in there.
Yeah I'm the same way.
And I only take tiny sips every so often during my workout.
and never before anything that uses a lot of core.
Everything uses core really but somethings use way more.
like straight up sit ups, planks, running, or kettlebell stuff
Yeah. Otherwise it could get messy. Lol
um.. for me it just hurts
eating cookies again today? lol
So have you planned any of your summer activities now that you have 3 weeks left?
2 weeks
No no cookies. No summer activities planned- I'm pathetic.
It can't be $ related not every thing costs.. and it can't be time.. you seem to have that. So what's wrong?
I dunno. Just kinda no one to really do anything with. I was thinking of just taking some time off and go somewhere alone- but I dunno.
I thought you have all these friends?
Lol. I do. Most of them are married and or in a relationship. Some can't afford to take off from work for one reason or another.
It doesn't have to be big trips. Something for the day.
Just because people are married or in a relationship doesn't mean they don't do things.
It does when the girls are jealous of everything their guys do.
I think that's in a guy's head
seriously
I don't know anyone like that.
You don't. But I do.
I think it's some excuse for the guy really not wanting to do things.
Ok.. so why does it have to be a "guy" thing.. I mean it's fine if it is.. but why?
like I hang out without chris with my friends and their bf/gfs.
they hang out with chris and I without anyone else.
then there are girls nights.. and guy things...
it's a mix.
I have guy friends I hang out with sometimes... though not as many anymore .
I know. I did that last night. Two couples that were in my wedding party actually. And the one couples two kids- but i dunno. It's been a long time I had the chance to do basically whatever I wanna do but I'm not use to that. So I kinda don't know where to start.
Maybe I'm assuming you want to go out and do things. Maybe you dont.
Because I always want to do things, I sometimes think everyone does, but I know that's not the case. It just takes me awhile to remember that.
I do wanna go out and do things. A bunch of my friends have kids- so it's not as easy to have the couple go out. And when the guy wants to just go out he gets shit sometimes-
I'm sure you know people who want to go out and do things.
Maybe not every night.. but that make plans for things.
I think you just don't want to for one reason or another.
Lol each who wants to go the beach and relax. Yeah that sounds horrible.
Sarcasm....
Most of the time I have just other stuff going on. Other things I've already committed to doing- side jobs or helping people do things.
I didn't even understand that.
even in a sarcastic way...
Half my message disappeared.
I meant; Who wouldn't want to go to the beach and relax-
I did say for one reason or another...
I know. And I always seem to have more reasons for putting it off than for going.
That's on you. I see that as not wanting to go.... finding other things t o do or things come up etc.
no one has every day of their life planned that far in advance of things.
Nope. But when it's something that you always think u have time for its easy to put it off for a another two or three days.
there should be nothing that you think you have time for.. unless it's meaningless things.. like cleaning or doing laundry or other tasks.
things that mean nothing in the big picture.
those are the only things that should be put off.
Yes- but when work is slow- likes its been i need to do the side jobs to try and fill in the gaps.
work is rubber ball. it will always be there to bounce back.
but your health, mental state, family, friends, and your social self those are glass.
You break them.. and they shatter.
That doesn't always go with my schedule it depends on other people. Work isn't such a reliable ball as I would like it. I get paid by what I do. Not just for showing up.
I make less then you and I own a house
and I have credit card debt now lol
believe me I get it. I still find ways.
Maybe you should fix my fucking sunroof.. Chris brought it into the dealership for me... and they were too busy to take it .. I had to make an appointment for the 26th.
I know. When I was with Christina she love going away and it was easy I enjoyed that- but when it's up to me because Pam doesn't get paid for vacation plus she was always working I got use to just filling my time with keeping busy.
you accepted that though.
If it's not what you want.. then you have to challenge it.
I have such a hard time figuring out who you are now.
Accepted it cause I just put it of to another day- I'm a procrastinator that's what I do. If I wasn't I would have been divorced two years ago at least.
That's not procrastination.. this is worse.
it's complacency.
Well it was also eating or someone else.
Waiting
For
mistake
people don't change
not like that
I know I just didn't want to believe it.
I don't even know how you became the person who waited around for things to be different.
That was never you.. idk.
You've always been a little hesitant, or procrastinated.. but you were never complacent. I've never seen you so introverted before.
We always jived, and now I feel like I don't even know how to talk to you 1/2 the time.
You can talk to me like u can always.
It's different now.
I've been living in a situation that I've been waiting for my life to start with someone.
And I'm still waiting.
And I feel awful about that... I do. But only you can change that. You kinda let yourself into this situation. Pam had exactly what she wanted, and I don't really blame her for not changing.
She has the life SHE wants and you supported that.
She makes choices and does things to be where she is.
You... and I'm not trying to be mean here.. don't make any decisions.
You for the most part go along with what she does.
That's fine for some people. That's how some couples work.
But you aren't exactly the submissive type.
I went along with what she was doing because I was living my own life most of everyday. And I loved her so I treated her the way I wanted to be treated thinking it would come back to me. It never did. I did a lot but not everything she wanted me to. And most of it was having to do with dancing there were perks that I saw for me. Going to Vegas a few times and actually hanging out with her- Florida a bunch of times. Things like that. It wasnt all for her I enjoyed things too. But she definitely had the better arrangement. That's why I changed it and left.
Are you spending your time figuring out your next steps?
Yes. I am trying to find places I can afford online- I just started looking.
Well that's a good step.
Find a 2 bedroom so I can "borrow" your place lol.
Borrow-? Lol
well you know.. use the 2nd room on an as needed basis, lol.
Lmao. I'm I intrigued. Tell me more about this idea... Lol
I'm not planning it out. It would ruin it. It needs to be a spontaneous room.
And maybe I like the idea of you wondering what I do in the room
But honestly.. it's your place so whatever you say goes....
Is have to have a dress code of course. Strictly enforced.
That's fine..
But you do know that you don't need to have a 2nd room to ask me to do that, lol.
Well I prob wouldn't keep it just in one room anyways. Things can happen anywhere. Lol
I still want a room.. for my purposes.
And you can request anything you like from me in return.
If I can get a two bedroom I'll let you use the room. Are u gonna let me know what you do in there?
Or would u ever show me?
I could set up a camera.
Would I watch it live?
If you want.
Or later. You don't have to tell me.
Would I ever get to be involved?
Involved in what?
I might just want the room for some alone time.
But I suppose you could be involved at times.
Of course. A camera watching you be alone....
something wrong with a camera watching me be alone?
Nope. Not at all.
But what is alone-? I mean does that mean no one else is there but you can have ore things there to help you pass the time-?
Help you reach deep inside yourself to help put you in a deep state of relaxation-
Maybe.... you control what's in the room.
Like I have to go into the room and wear what's there.. and can only use the objects that are in the room.
I'd have to make sure you knew how to put everything on and make sure it's on correctly- and tight enough. And I'd have to make sure u knew how to use everything in the room- properly.
hmm that might be a separate idea.
I'm thinking of I'm already there when you get home.. all ready for you to watch.. etc.
***when you decide to really do this at some point with someone, I need to live vicariously through you.
If I came home to you wearin what i want, I couldn't just watch you- And what do you mean love vicariously through me-?
I'm assuming that this won't actually happen, but it gives you good ideas for your sex life.
So you'll have to tell me about it when it does.
Would you come over if I asked you to when I get my own place-?
Do you think I wouldn't?
I hope you would.
I don't see why I wouldn't
would you invite me?
Definitely.
Yes. Really.
So where have you been looking so far?
Irvington, Newark-
Lol
Kidding.
Clifton area around caldwell but I know those are two expensive places.
hence newark and irvington lol
why not more up 23 or 46?
that' still close to your job just the other direction
Yeah I'd do either. Like I said I just started looking. I don't know if a realtor is better or not.
It's hit or miss. you pay more with a realtor.. but you might not find a place either.
if you HAVE the extra money to throw at at realtor then go for it
How much does it usually go for ? Do u know-?
No clue.
I've never had the extra money
Sometimes it's a listing...
sometimes you pay a month's rent
so instead of owing a month for security.. you owe another month or a 1/2 month to the realtor.
sometimes you pay a flat fee for a listing of places.. and you may not find anything.
You could post on FB if anyone knows of a place. I did that for a friend recently.
I got back about 5 people who knew someone renting out something.
The thing is.... you might not want to post on FB that it's for you
like if her friends are on your fb
and she's on your fb
Yeah not something I wanna do there.
that sucks.. maybe you can post but block certain people.
no one has to know it's for you.
Or you can ask certain people to post it for you on their page.
FB is really good for this kind of thing
You have to be the one to make the effort in doing things.
I know it's hard
chris needs to work late on a project I gave him. It's due tomorrow and not working correctly now. ugh
I guess I get to go shopping while I give him some more time.
there's not much up here. I can run to Pathmark and Shoprite and that's about it.
I think there's a marshalls or tjmax or something across the highway I can kill time ine.
oh wow .. he just sent me a version
and it doesn't work
this is where I don't like working with him
Yeah I can see that.
i don't want to "complain" about work stuff to my husband
and I'm sure he doesn't like the fact that I'm giving him projects
Well he's the one that should be able to tell u then.
and now he's like.. well i guess this is what I'm doing tonight hope you didn't have plans with me
and it's funny because "my" stuff is the only stuff he takes home
I don't see any of his other projects come home with him.
Maybe he thinks its quality time.
He doesn't interact with me
I'm seeing if he wants me to just take him home now and I can go out from there.
This way I'm not waiting with yogurt in my car.
Ok so I'm leaving him here apparently
Yeah. It's more dramatic that way-
I have to come back at like 10pm maybe though
I asked him for a general time.. he's like idk.. I"m like midnight.. he's like not that late.. i'm like later then 9 he's like maybe
Now I wish I had a 2nd car.
This has never happened before like this though.
Yeah it does suck.
I guess I should leave work now before I'm stuck in even worse traffic
Yeah. Good idea.
I bought 8 bottles of salad dressing for less then $3.
And greek yogurt That was my big shopping trip tonight lol.
You know I told you that you are welcome to crash a night at my shorehouse. Its only just couples on monday. Gina's bf will only be down on monday.
I remember. It's not out of my mind.
Totally up to you. I'm asking as your friend and I know you can use a summer day
I know. And I thank u.
Whatcha up to?
Bout to sleep
U?
I'm sorry !
Packing
It's ok.
Nice
I'll let you go to sleeps.. Nite Nite!
I ran into a guy I dated when I was 18 tonight. I've seen him since.. but he said the best thing. .He said "Wow Dana I think this is the lightest I've seen you. You look great". I said Yep. I haven't weighed this since I've been 17=) And then he guess a # that was totally 30lbs less then what I weigh which made me laugh!
Anyways good night hun Sweet Dreams!
Sweet dreams. I thought dated me when u were 18....?
But I still really like looking at ur profile pic when I message u...
I was 18 when you cheated on me. And thanks for the pic compliment
When are you headed down the shaw?
I just got out of the shower.. My stuff is mostly packed minus some things I have to pull out of the dryer and fridge. Have to stop for ice, and drop Charlotte off by my mom's. Get dressed I suppose.. and wake Chris up to put the stuff in the car.. then we are leaving.
I was hoping to leave here by 8:30.. but i guess it's by 9 now.
Sooo like around 1? Lol
Nah I'm just pulling my hair back, and my stuff just to go into my car. it' shouldn't take long. I'm a good packer and good at making things fit.
I'm just eating some fruit and yogurt right now.
It's crazy how much stuff you say I can turn into something dirty so quickly. Lol
That has nothing to do with what I say.
Anybody could be saying it.
It's just how you think.
I don't know what ur talking about. Lol
Lol. Stop pretending it's my fault.
It's just you! lol
I'm not pretending anything..... ....feelin guilty about ur dirty mind now-? Lol
mine? no.
Noooooope.
Why would I feel guilty?
I dunno. In case u didn't wanna admit ur dirty mind- lol
It's your dirty mind in question anyway
stop deflecting.
It's never in question. My dirty mind is just always working. Lol
speaking of work.. is that where you are now?
Yeah. There's not gonna be much here today. Everyone is cool like you and going down the shaw.
I'm not cool..
I'm just living life.
ur cool. I wish I wasn't at work today. I'd ride down the shore. Witch I've never done.
The only time I've ever been on a motorcycle was down the parkway
I've never taken my bike on the pkwy
I usually always go up north.
Hey- how was the shaw?
Hey. Fun!
That's cool!
I may try and get down there this weekend but I'm not looking forward to the traffic. Lol.
I might call out of work on friday and go down. I have a half day to take. Chris has to work, but I meed to use up my 1/2 day
Traffic doesn't suck if you go early.
I was thinking early afternoon on Saturday- So I'll prob get there about late Sunday night. Lol
You have friends there that you are going sat?
I came home sat afternoon. The traffic south was horrid all the way.
Yeah pos's inlaw's have a house down there and I might stop down- Ugh. Horrid-?
So I are back together now?
You
Ohh pos!!!
I thought that was a typo
Lol. Yeah. Pos. not Pam.
Well that's cool I guess
Yeah.. Like not moving from Newark to point
that was around 11:30
I'll see- I dunno if I'm gonna go.
Ugh.
You might have more luck with the weekend. Most people will be down by Friday.
This weekend Friday was crappy and it wasn't a holiday. So most people drove down on Sat.
Good point.
If you leave later on Saturday and stay the night for the beach on Sunday that shouldn't be too bad.
I'm kinda thinking that. But I've gotta come back on Sunday cause its my good friends bday.
i have to drive to Englishtown at like 6am on Saturday
What is the point of going then?
I'm running a 5k.
That's right. Cool- good luck!
I'll prolly walk ,lol. As long as I attempt to run I'll be happy .
Nothing wrong with that.
So what's the point of going if you aren't going to get beach time?
Well I hope to just be there sat evening and maybe Sunday morning. I know- its dumb but I'm gonna try.
IDK.. for me just to sit at someone's house that traffic isn't worth it.
I can sit at my own house and avoid traffic
I know but I'd go to the beach even if its at night.
Btw I those shoes u posted from Macy's or whatever are crazy hot. Lol
Where is the place?
I think a little past sleazeside
Just leave late saturday then.
Yeah I know. I might.
hopefully the ride will be nice. I have to drive to Englishtown.. home.. then to woodbridge in the afternoon. So i know I'll hit traffic at some point.
What about 287?
i live no where near 287
I'd have to go so far out to get to it.. to loop around for an extra 30 mins .
Yeah but you would be moving.
i think it would take longer
Prob right and you may still hot traffic
it's getting around newark that's the issue
I drove dts 2 saturdays ago and it had me get OFF the parkway and take rt 18
that might be a better option for you
I use WAZE because it always updates me with traffic redirects
Yeah true. Or take 287 to rt 18
It's an app?
yeah that's what I'm saying for you to do.
Yeah if I go its something ill look into.
I"ve never met someone so weird about making plans to do things.
Just go.
You dwell on things too long or make excuses. It's kinda annoying to watch even.
Jeez. Thanks.
I'm sorry. I'm just being straight forward.
I know but shit comes up. And to go down on a whim with really no where to go and sometimes no one to go with when I do have the time or want to go its not so fun.
Shit will ALWAYS come up. That's life.
The point is that you have to make things happen for you.
Not let things happen.
To me.. to go somewhere on a whim with no idea where you are going are the best times.
and if no one wants to go with you.. oh well.
I know. I'm very used to doing things on my own.
And again..your issue is not NO One your issue is not the people you want to go with.
I told you to come to my house in Point. You chose not to.
And that's fine honestly.. but don't say it's because you have no one to do things with.
I'm such a different person then you. I have responsibilities, but don't want to look at my life and feel like I missed out on things. That's important to me. I will also never complain to people who ask me to do things, that I don't do anything.
It's insulting.
Honestly, I feel like I'm giving you a 2nd chance after you really hurt me. And you kinda are just acting the same way. I either never realized before, or maybe I just didn't want to see it. I know I should have said things to you about this years ago, but for whatever reason I never did. Now I kind of feel like I have to or just not talk to you anymore. I think I'm doing the right thing here by talking to you about it vs just ignoring you.
Yes. You asked me to stop by your house dts but I wasn't able to get down there. The only thing I'm complaining to you about is traffic. I know how important it is to get away and I do like to. Excuses are made by me to justify how not happy i am right now with how my life has been. I'm working on that. So I'm sorry if I'm insulting you in any way. That's not my intention at all.
I don't think you understand what I'm saying exactly.
I think we are just different.
And your idea of life and friendships, etc. is just really different then mine.
It brings me down.. and I don't really want that in my life.
I'm not going to go out of my way to try to be there for someone who doesn't want me there. In the long run that hurts me.
Well I don't want to bring you down. I know you have been trying to reach out and I'm sorry if I haven't reached back. I don't mean to push you away or not include you into what's going on with me but I tend to do this when I'm not happy. I get look inward and try and fix it. I'm sorry if I'm bringing negativity into your life cause that's what I'm trying not to do for you or for myself.
And I get that. And there is only so much I can do or say, but at the end of the day you are the one who has decide to be happy.
I know that. And I'm working towards that. I understand if you want to take a step back from me until I do achieve that I understand and I won't bother you. I am working towards being happy and being able to relax and enjoy life again and not keep my mind busy with 'things to do'
I just don't wanna hurt u anymore.
You really don't get me.
Or you have no interest in getting me
I still can't tell which one it is.
I tend to surround myself with people who are upfront and honest about things.
If my friendship is too much for you.. then just say so.
If this is really just how you are... then I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing. For anyone else I would try to cheer them up, get them moving fwd. You don't seem to want that. I take it personally.. which you are saying I shouldn't. Still I am left unsure as to the point of our friendship then.
I talk to you several times a week. I don't really have many people in my life that I do that with. It starts to mean something to me. I'm on edge because I've already been through this once with you to find out that it wasn't that same way in return.
I feel like I'm in a great place in my life, and I feel like I could be a good friend. I guess it would make me feel good about myself to be able to help you. But.. if you don't want that, then I should know.
Sorry I had to do some work on a car- You are and have been great to me. I thank you for that and I like that. And I know I haven't been giving it back enough either. I also know that I haven't been one to easily accept help from you- but I'm like that with everyone. What I'm going through I know lots of people have so I know I'm not different only I am a bit different in how I go through it. I tend to get quiet and pull back into myself or just away and try and figure it out for myself. Because i know I'm the only one that can make myself truly happy. I want your friendship I do- its just that when I go through heavy stuff like this I know there's a not anyone that can really change and fix things but me. So as you try and wanna help I know you wanna help I just dont know how to accept it or how u can when I feel like its all in my head and in my heart. I'm different from you in that way and prob others too- but I'm working on it.
ok. that makes sense. I'm not backing away if you seriously do want to be friends. I'm here for you. I just can't continue to ask you to do things, and you don't. Just consider anything I do going forward and open invite.... and if you need to get out to clear your head.. or to not think. I'm here.
Thank you- that means a lot to me. More than you know.
I seriously do want to be friends for the record.
ok.. sorry for what seems like harping. It's just frustrating on my end.
No- it's not harping and I know it's frustrating for you- and that's what kills me- that I'm pissing you off. Seemingly not caring that you are trying. But I do thank you for trying-
I mean honestly.. it might not be what you want. or care about.
and that's fine.
I just don't want to waste my effort on someone who doesn't want that.
like yay here I am trying to cheer my friend up... and my friend doesn't want me cheering them up.
either because they choose to be miserable. or because I'm not the right person.
And that happens.
I'm not insulted by that.
I just have a weird way of figuring out what to do when something like this comes up- I want cheering up by prob one of the cheeriest people I know- I just wanna enjoy it. Kinda just get my head out of my own ass and remember how to lie again.
how to lie? lmai
lmao
that's appropriate
Live.
Meanie.
so how are things going with Pam this week?
They are going. Lol
better? worse? same?
Same. We have been civil and talking. And she told me this week she's gotta work a lot cause everyone is away for competitions.
Shocker. Lol
Ok. So she doesn't mind losing her husband.
At least you know for sure now that her job IS her priority.
Either she's aware of this.. that it's ending. OR she thinks you'll come around at some point.
I've known that. She's waiting for me to say ok- I'm coming home lets try- and she's still gonna work the same- maybe give me a few more hours on the weekends but that about it.
You make her seem very emotionless.
have you told her that you are not coming home to a few less hours or the same? That you will only come home to a wife every night?
Well she's not texting me with I miss you or I love you. She's I'm sure being told this or that by her friends but she is normal to me as long as i text her and communicate with her. She knows she screwed up. And she is just wondering and waiting for me to wanna try again. And again. And again.
Yes. I've told her.
I would think if I screwed up and I wanted it to work... I'd be all over that.
If I didn't want it to work.. or I knew it was over.. then I would let it go.
I kinda think any person who didn't want to lose their husband or wife would be all into it to make it work.
I think she knows I'm done. I just have to say it. Until then she thinks there's still a chance. But again- why would I go back just to wait around again. And then what if something else pops up and she's gotta go do this or that- and because I love her and I know it would make her happy- i let her do it. ....oh wait there's the last 9 years in a nutshell.
She thinks that's you though..
the one that supports all her decisions
Well I've supported her and told her many many times that I treat her the way I want to be treated. I told her that if I was treated the way she treats me- we woulda been done a long time ago.
she's use to that
some things can't be changed or undone
I know. And that's why we are where we are now.
It's crazy to think that if I didn't bring this all up and kinda 'snap' sorta speak shit would still be going the way it has been.
I know I'm not happiest right now. But I would've been completely hating life if i hadn't spoke up.
it's a change
and are you not happy because you are going through marriage issues.. or are you not happy because you don't like your life right now
Yup. That I made.
big difference .
I'm not happy cause I feel alone when I shouldn't have been. And it wasnt my choice to be. It's kinda both. I'm not happy cause I waited for someone else for me to start the next part of my life. I'm not happy cause I let someone do that.
you have to forgive yourself
You waited because you wanted it.. and it was fair.
And it's what you were told.
It's not you who changed the deal.
And now you made the right decision.
You didn't LET anyone do anything to you.
I spoke up two years ago. Again a little over a year ago when she spoke about kids and again a few months ago before I left.
You gave it your best though.
You should be happy you did that.
You didn't just walk away right away.
You tried.
and you didn't over try.
3x is fair.
It would be easier if we didn't get along- but I think it will end up ok. With us apart but ok.
I guess it's easier to blame or hate someone
But you have to think about the friends thing...
what happens when she stops dancing...and she marries someone else??
are you going to wonder why she didn't do that for you?
I'm going to hope that the next guy is OK with everything or they understand each other..etc.. and that the above scenerio doesn't happen.
BUT you have to be prepared for it.
She hasn't danced in two years.
by dancing i mean work or judging
everything she's not giving you now
when she decides to give that to someone else.
what then?
I don't know. I mean then its good for him. It's just how long am I gonna wait for her to do that for me-? If she did. And frankly- I'm not sure I'm the one she would give it up for.
ok. i just want to see if you are prepared for that with the whole thing where it's important to you to stay friends.
It's not as easy as it seems.... but hopefully it works out.
I never said it would be. But I just have gotten the feeling that she just isn't into me. Like I'm not a guy that would turn her on.
It sounds stupid but a guy likes to hear he's thought of as attractive to the person he's with. She didn't do that very often to me. She cringed when I shaved my head real tight- and barely looked at me when i started my sleeve tattoo. Plus the fact having sex only once every month doesn't make a person feel wanted.
Girls and guys both need to feel wanted.
I need a vacation!
What? Lol
U just got back!
People are stressing me out lol
Yeah I hear u.
want a peach pie? lol
Is that a trick question. Cause it sounds like ur being dirty. Lol
lol
I figured you'd think it was dirty
A sexy chick offers a guy some peach pie.... I mean really. Lol.
Which is why I asked lol
In all reality though I'm making a bunch of peach pies.
Well when I eat pie it usually gets messy and can get all over my face.
nice
I can't go there with you right now. Chris is helping me.. i made the first two and I sort of showed him how to make another one then ran out of the kitchen because my eyes were itchy.
if i start talking like this with you while he's making a pie crust that's just wrong lol
i need to go back to the kitchen now lol
So what do you do with your time that you are ALWAYS on FB messenger?
Do you talk to that many people?
Pam busted my balls about texting more people than I do her- so now I just talk to people on here. I usually just have it open or I'm looking for different peach pies to check out. Lol
haha
Are you talking to a lot of girls?
No. Just peach pies.
I guess because I have FB on ALL of my devices and every time you message someone it goes to all of those devices.. it wouldn't be an ideal place for me to text guys if I wanted to.
I could be out on my phone and Chris might be doing something on his computer which is near mine and the message shows up
or he could be using the tablet and it shows up
So you talk to a lot of peaches?
are they real?
Lol I talk to a few they are real but arms length. Some farther than that. Lol
Are you in a FB fantasy draft?
Um no. Why-?
they intimidate me. lol.
i don't even pay attention enough to do them.
someone asked me to be in theirs... but i think instead I'm going to do a knockout pool
there's one I got invited to that's a $50 buy in and last year's pot was $24,000
I don't get any of that stuff. I mean I don't even really do pools either. Except maybe the Super Bowl.
I know people that have done well in those kinda pools even without much knowledge of things but its tough. I think they got lucky. There are people that spend hours everyday setting those things up. With drafts and injury reports and all that crap. I think it takes the fun out of watching.
That's me though.
Can you recommend a good sales person ay your dealership? A coworker needs a new honda.
Sure. Kim Hadden. It's a guy- older. He's nice and very fair.
Thanks!
I typed that hand by accident lol
No prob. Lol What are they looking for?
Idk. He has a honda now with over 200k and doesn't want to put more $ into it
Gotcha. Well now is a good time cause the new 2014's are gonna start coming in and they would want to get rid of the 13s they have in stock. I have no complaints about any of the new cars we have. But the new accords are nice. If he's a car guy.
I want my jeep to last forever
Lol. Cause u like it that much or cause U don't want payments? Lol
Just a few things I would change. I would add a towing package, a different radio, and buy a trail rated version.
I love it minus the leaky sunroof
Well all can be done to that ya know.
I'm afraid of after market. Its taken me 2 years to buy crossbars after I realized I need them.
The radio I just don't want to invest in. The towing...I'm afraid. My jeep is only a 4c and I feel like it would pull off or something.
Lol. What do you wanna tow?
Hahahahaha
I want to buy a travel trailer
Like a pop up sorta thing?
Bigger then a pop up. One with a bathroom lol
Ok- well yeah u will need something full size. Like a pickup or a suburban or something with a 5000lb towing capacity.
Or more.
Depending on the trailer. Lol
Right lol hense no need to put one on my jeep
Hence
Sorry grammar nazi
Lol no I was just agreeing with your 'hence'
Ahh ok
I want to tow, but I don't want to drive a truck otherwise lol
And I think once I have my trailer ill keep it at the same place
I just have to get it there
Then u can rent a full size truck for that.
True lol
I like the option on hand though
I don't like feeling stuck
Incase I want to move it randomly
And I know nothing about offroading or doing shit to my jeep to make that happen.
I guess I should replace my radio haha
And never let chris drive it. I know he somehow fucks up my breaks, and it feels different to drive it sometimes.
He's driving now and I almost died twice
Once from a truck about to swipe me, and once from slamming into a non moving car
His use of brakes and acceleration is nauseating.
I can hardly play candy crush
Lmao. Curssed candy crush...
Its why I don't drive home
Though I seem to be talking with you instead
Now I'm home and off for a pedi!!!
Whoa! I won over candy crush!?!?!!!?
Sweet! I didn't get picked over candy crush even with my wife- I feel honored!
Yeah I suppose so
Its not that big a deal
It's the little victories that make me smile. Lol
You should know my peach pie is amazing
I never doubted that- And well i do remember...
My grandparent's house was knocked down
What? When??
I guess over the weekend
I saw it the other day but I can't remember when that other day was
I guess I saw it Saturday.
The restaurant bought it and the house next to her.
It's being torn down to build a parking lot.
Ugh.
I'm sorry
It sucks
I was hoping to pull a plant from it.. but I never had time.
Awe. Is there still nothing there. Or can u still go grab something?
i don't know if they took the rubble away yet
i'm sure everything is gone or covered
my mom saw it.. i guess i will go and pass it later
i don't know if i want to see rubble.
Yeah I can understand that.
i'm not really feeling like doing much of anything right now
I hate that at work.
Yeah i def understand that
My crossbars just showed up!
at least that's a positive thing today.
Lol see!
Now all u wanna do is go put the bars on. Lol.
exactly.. which i have plans after work. so that might not happen till tomorrow
i'm going to run out for lunch I brought lunch in but don't want to sit here.
ttyl
Went to Smashburger. Ate grilled chicken with no bread and some fried pickles lol
Nice. That sounds pretty damn good.
Never had fried pickels though
It was yummy. I learned if I cut back on certain bad things, I am ok to have others.
Fried pickles are awesome
they actually don't have them on the menu anymore as they are phazing them out
It's a treat. a funnel cake, a zeppole, fried pickles. lol
they taste better in the southern states
with pork chops
carolina pork chops
yummm
you have to go inland for that though
not on the coast
Everything is fried in SC. I've been there a few times. Charleston- and there abouts. Her parents live down there. They retired down there
Charleston is nice. I've been for the day when I've been to Savannah.
Kim lives in SC outside of Charlotte NC.
I've been there a number of times.
That's cool.
I wish I could move there.
Everything is so cheap
Yeah but the wages are also not much.
They aren't that bad. And I make crap here anyway
Basically u can't go anywhere with debt from around here.
People make more now because it's a booming area.
That sucks. Have you looked around at all?
looked around for another job?
That's a complicated answer.
For awhile I felt like I wasn't getting any real job skills that transfered to a resume
so i felt kinda stuck
but that's another reason I took this job in April.
We are going through a reorg and I think I'll know by Oct if I'll continue to have a job
or not
I feel a little more confident about my job skills now though
If I lose my job I think I want a totally different career
sell my house.. run away.. live on the beach.. that type of thing
I think u have a lot of skills and I think people are looking for more than what's on the resumes.
That's a good idea. Lol
I'm good at what I do.. but it doesn't translate on paper
Yeah I understand.
I'm really really good at diffusing angry crazy people
And people come to me with a lot of things and I find answers for them
that was about all i could say before I took this positiong
And now u can understand a really heavy Indian accent. Lol
Among a lot of other things. Lol
haha well that's been the past 6 years
Damn- at this point u can just hang out in 7-11 and know what they are saying under their breath. Lol
stop being so racist
How is that racist? Lol
against indians lol
I'm not saying its a bad thing I'm just saying you could prob understand them really well.
lol
Do you ever deal with customers or are you sheltered from that?
How do I put a new radio in my jeep btw. I feel like things have to be compatible? Am I wrong?
I deal with a lot of customers. A lot of time the service advisors don't know how to explain it the right way. Or they just don't believe them. Kinda like hearing it right from a doctor and not from a nurse sorta thing. Nothing against nurses btw
As far as radio- all u need to do is make sure it's the correct size. U can go onto crutchfield.com and u type in your year make and model and then just go to radios. They will show all the ones that can fit.
When u decide you just need to get an install kit and adaptor harness.
ummm do they all play sirius?
there's no option for that
ohh
i found it
Most radios are xm/serious ready. You would need a separate thing for it
the entire reason i hate my current radio.... it doesn't tell me the song/artist
that's the only reason i dislike it. AND it was the one thing I didn't like when I bought my jeep.
But now the sunroof leaked into my radio, and my buttons don't light up. So i'm like ehhh maybe I'll swap it out.
This is all because the dealership is making me wait for an appointment
which they never did before and now i'm annoyed
Go to another dealer
this one drives me or chris to work
after we drop it off
it's down the highway
only 1 car remember
I remember but some dealers can give u a loaner car.
apparently only if it's there for 3 days
i've already looked into this.
it's such a hassle
will radios work with my remote on my wheel or do I have to replace that?
i think those buttons aren't part of the radio.. i think they might be different.. idk
this is too much for me lol
I'm not sure to be honest. I've never replaced a radio that has the steering wheel remote. It's possible they do.
i don't even want something expensive.. i just want it to display the info
I can't believe it doesn't do it. The car came with serious right?
yes
it's like the only radio that just doesn't do it
there's no display on the radio itself it will just tell me the station name on my dash
There isn't a button that can change the display to the artist or song name?
nope
it's just not an option
I know...
I think this is just over my head or something
It's stressful to make pie crust!
And now I have to assemble crossbars and a kayak carrier! !
Ya might as well just go order a bunch of ikea furniture to top it all off. Lol
It shouldn't be too tough to do the carrier and bars.
It's just that u are vertically challenged like me and that may not be fun by yourself.
Again with rhe thumbs
Ugh
I purposely bought a folding carrier because its easier to get the kayak on
I know I'm just saying its not fun actually installing it on the car.
I know..but I need to lol
I know. Can Chris help?
I don't want him to
He'll be all annoyed and then take my fun away
He's not super handy at things
I told you the bed in the basement story?
I can't recall no.
We had bought a new bigger mattress and I wanted to build a platform bed. Chris took it over and built it in the basement. But he used a bisquiter and had a queen size solid platform that was too big to get out of the basement. I had to rip it apart salvage what I could and rebuild it so it came apart.
If I give him exact plans he is fine. Otherwise no.
Yeah that sucks.
Hi. I saw u and Chris yesterday. At a&p.
was i running around like an idiot?
were we fighting?
lol
Lol. U had just paid at the self checkout thing. I was getting beer.
I didn't wanna run after you- it woulda been weird. Lol
I suppose
lol
And I might have gotten in trouble for seemingly steeling the beer. Lol
Stealing
That's an odd place to end up buying beer at
My friend lives around the corner from there. I was going over for a BBQ.
ahh.
I went to the Rutherford Street Fair yesterday. Not a single BBQ all weekend
It's ok. I went to dinner friday night, had the run sat morning, went to the beach for a few hours, had a food party sat night (left early because I was so tired from waking up at 445), relaxed all day sunday.
That's an odd place to end up going to a street fair. Lol
The rutherford one is cool. Lots of antique dealers.. but the restaurants have stuff outside too.
And my friends are rutherford firemen
so I stop by to say hello
I like flea markets and antique shows
AND I met Corey Booker lol
And apparently you stalked me at A&P. So i guess it was a good weekend.
Lol. I saw u met the Book and then I went in a&p and saw you. I almost asked for your autograph. Lol
funny
I'm rarely in A&P which is the weirder part. Only once in awhile when something is on sale and I have a coupon and it's a great price.
I bought reduced fat ritz crackers, and some chicken for dinner because I had a gift card.
i need to start keeping a calendar. I have no idea when things are, and then some stuff happens all on the same day
I have a wedding to go to in Nov. It's the same weekend I would celebrate my bday. This girl's shower is the same day as the zombie walk and a photowalk that I do. Her bachelorette party is the same day I was going to go to Wildwood for a memorial service.
And I have no other plans except for those 3 dates! lol
Wtf. She's like all in your life. Lol
at least i know I have to go...
another one of our friends is not going to the bachelorette party because.. it's a country concert and it's not her thing
do you think that is my thing?
omg
and she's not going to the shower because she wants to go to the zombie walk
I dunno. I think u could rock the short jean skirt and cowgirl boots and hat. Lol
omg
awful
boots are also expensive
I'm not buying them to wear to one thing
i really have no clue what to wear to that
what's a good place to go with my cousin to dinner tomorrow? I want to meet up with her before she leaves for boot camp.
What are you feeling? Bar? Close by?
Nicer?
something with a bar.. but not pricey
something upbeat.. not super classy
That's helpful
lol
I don't want a fancy place.
There's Franklin steak house- it's on Passaic ave just a little bit off 46 that's got good food and a nice place.
It's in Fairfield.
I used to go to the one in Nutley before Hockey games
Yeah this is a bit different.
ok.. that's good I wouldn't want to go to nutley
This place is big and has seating at tables near the bar and at the bar as well as in away from it. Prices are pretty good. And lots of tv's in there. They play music a lot of the time too
idk.. what kind of crowd does it get?
On a week night prob a mix of everyone. It's been younger and middle and older. Depends on the night. And sometimes there's no one in there.
I def don't want no one in there
and I dont' want screaming kids
This is where Pam goes after work right?
Nah prob won't be. Just sit near the bar but school starts this week so prob no kids will be anywhere near it.
Yeah sometimes. But usually on Fridays.
She goes there for lunch when she has time
I can't imagine I'll like it
no offense
i just picture her playing CC and if you are in a bar playing CC it can't be all that exciting.
It's not really a bar. It's like a restaurant more with a large bar. On Friday and sat its busier and like a bar. What time are you going out?
after work some time
I take no offense to it btw. It's what she does. Not me.
There's also just jakes in Montclair.
omg
hahaha
now I know we have different taste
Just Jakes is just full of college kids
I only go when I have to
and the food isn't good
it's ok
I go when a friend wants to see a band
Different taste? I'm trying to suggest places for you to bring ur cousin. Lol
or I would go for trivia night a few years ago
Well I haven't gone there in prob about two years.
it's the same
Well I would look to see who has a band on wed night then decide from there. It's tough to suggest when I have no idea if you wanna eat more or drink more or be entertained. That's tough to find somewhere that has all that. On a wed night.
no band
eat dinner, have a few drinks
Tiffs on 23. Or thatcher McGees.
These are all places I have gone with my friends already being there. Lol
I hate Tiffs. I like Thatchers but totally in a different direction
I like Sunset but that's also in a different direction
but good for you to know since that's up in that area too lol
Do I get credit for trying-? Lol
Sunset?
I think she's living in Maywood
so to drive all the way up there is kinda a pain
Yeah- ok then- The Harem? Lol
Kidding.
i think my cousin is a lesbian but won't tell anyone
or her mom won't accept it
so we aren't allowed to know
She hasn't told you-? That's not cool. She should be able to tell someone.
We aren't super close
or really close at all
I hardly saw her for years
I mean do you remember me talking about my cousins?
She's like 8 years younger then me.
Back then I saw her on holidays she was a kid.. then for years I didn't see her. She sang in a band for a bit so I went to a few of her shows
now I see her once a year on christmas.. but last year that didn't happen
eileen mentioned beer garden and now I want to go there.
i can't drink beer
it's the ONE thing I really miss
No carbonated stuff right?
right.
i mean i guess some people do..
but I've had like a sip and I'm ok..
but an entire thing. i'll prolly burp
So. Everyone burps.
i'll burp a lot
lol
Well as long as you don't keel over like a bird eating a alka seltzer tab. Then I'm sure u will be fine.
i'm worried about that lol
there are supposedly tricks
that allow you too
i didn't want to start that though
Um ok- then don't have beer. Lol
im reading that after a few months you can have it
i did have 1/2 a soda 2 weeks ago and nothing bad happened
oh i thought they had just beer
they have wine
that would work
lol
Lol well then go for it.
ok i messaged her if zeppelin hall was cool.
have you been there?
Nope. Where is it?
Jersey City
it's awesome
German food and it's a beer garden
Great place to go with friends too
I'm never around JC so I wouldn't have any idea where to go. Lol
well you don't say "i want to go to JC tonight" lol
this and there is a Barcade in JC but I haven't been there. A lot of people like it.
i have like so much in Oct.. I'm cohosting a clam bake with a friend. the lighthouse challenge, a JDRF walk, the shower, I'm sure 500 other things
there's a NIN concert somewhere in there
i'm pretty sure they are all the same weekend lol
Notice my friend Ron wrote "medieval times" on my status It's that running joke.
Lol. Yeah I never went to a NIN concert and I'd only go if I had floor seats and it was GA but i don't think they set it up like that anymore for them
i have GA floor
Yes. U told me about the midevil times lol
The whole floor is GA?
that's what I couldn't figure out.. there are GA floor sections
i'm thinking they have seats.. there is no pit at NIN
i've been to see him like 4 times
I had like 7th row center at NINJA.. omg awesome
I posted a pic from that concert. I have a TON of others I never processed.
They let me bring in my camera
Chris knows a guy who is friends with Ron Sheridan.. and I want Chris to ask him to see if we can get backstage passes. We almost had them for another show .. but couldn't get tickets to that show.. it sucked.
That's cool.
i would cry
i would have cried more for JA though lol
I'm going to see GWAR next weekend open up for Hatebreed.
umm
i think we are going
wtf
lol
you are going to see hate Hatebread though right?
The last time I saw GWAR was in Montclair and they opened up for Lamb of God a the welmont. Yeah I'm into Hatebreed.
My friend Shawn is into GWAR.
chris was at that show
Yeah I think we talked about that years ago after the show.
no
we weren't talking then
we didn't talk from when you got married till just this past year
Damn. Sorry bout that- again.
me too really
i caused it
We talk now. That's all that matters.
right lol
Does Chris like Lamb of God? I'm seeing them again in nov with testament, killswitch engage and huntress.
so I always tell Chris I won't go to a Gwar show. When I saw they were playing on the 15th and because we were away for the GwarBq I posted it on my FB and tagged him. Then I told him I would go.
Not that I know of.
Yeah I'm not too into them but I appreciate their fun. Except they make the floor a mess and the pit is even more of a nasty mess. Lol
but now it's so going to look like i wanted to go because you are there
omg...
You didn't know. And it's a known thing I like Hatebreed.
Come on. Do u think he will be like that?
idk.. he might say it as a joke to me
but kinda mean it
Well I've always posted about going to see them
out of nowhere I say ok I'll see gwar
i didn't know you like hatebread
for years I refused to see them
then suddenly and he even questioned why already i want to go
and the answer is that I felt like I should just go once.
now he's so going to think you are the reason
Last time Hatebreed played was with whitechapel- that was a fucking sick show.
Except leaving early hallway through Hatebreed set- my buddy got cheap shotted in the head as the circle pit was going.
There were some fucking assholes at that show- starting pits in the middle of non-pit floor people isn't cool.
yeah that sucks
lol
i'm asking chris if he really wants to go to that show.. and I'm not getting a real answer
of course lol
Lol why wouldn't you go. I won't say I'm going on fb.
omg i have to tell him you are going
or it's going to be wors
worse like a setup
ok i just talked to him and told him and he's like umm that's weird.
not because of you though.. because I never wanted to go before
i'm like it's just weirdly ironic
he's not sure if he wants to go because it's the day we get back from vacation. He wants to wait till that day to see.
it's actually the day after we get back
It's a big place. Lots of people. So I prob wouldn't even see u guys.
You would find me.. Chris will be upfront during gwar and I won't be
You would find me because I would feel awkward being by myself ... that's always when I run into people
when I feel awkward
like if you would have said hello yesterday I would have been like. wow I feel awkward lol
I never expect to run into people when I'm out doing daily stuff
though i guess not awkward enough to snap a pic with Corey. I guess I was fine, lol.
ohhhh 430!
my work day is over!
Now I get to sit at home with no car because chris teaches tonight
Take the pup for a walk to ur moms
I usually walk up to paulison around school 3
But I did the gym today so idk
$700 to fix my sunroof. $40 part. This sucks
Shit. Sounds like they have to drop the headliner down to replace the part.
That's usually a lot of labor.
he said it's 6 hours
Yeah- sounds like the headliner has to be removed to replace the part.
this is the 3rd time
When was the last repair?
idk.. like every year
he said this is the first time they are replacing the drains
the other 2 times they did something else
they prolly cleaned it out and unkinked it
or something
So- what makes them think this will fix it?
it's an updated drain
They should have put that in last time.
apparently last time it didn't exist.. and the last 2 times I didn't pay
And if they didn't have the part they should definitely help you out here- n
Help out as in charge you less.
At least the guy called me.... i fucking hate the woman who works there
For us it's important to have the car fixed right the first time. And I'm sure to them it's important too.
the guy and I are on the same page that I know he has to say certain things.. and I laugh... and he tells me that he likes that I read between lines
Our customers would have called Honda corporate and sometimes they split the bill between the customer and warranty.
I'm not challenging enough
I am just not a big complainer like that
I know- but it's what's right.
I fucked up my Jeep big time when I took it offroading.. Totally my fault
they didn't charge me to fix it..
and when it broke again I didn't get charged
I don't mean u have to bitch just be like come on- u are a good customer and they should be able to help out
And u SHOULD be able to take ur jeep off road a bit.
it's not a trail rated jeep
Still a jeep.
i think only those are warrantied or something
I have 19" of clearance.. I dove my jeep into quick mud with water over my windshield...
of which i planned on going to the same area next week, lol.
Well leave the water for the kayak. Lol
chris just sent me a link lol.. there's a class action suit or something against chrylser for the sunroof issue
Btw would you e interested in buying a jeep cherokee?
i want a wrangler
Check that link out- they may reimburse you for repairs or they may do a recall
Ok well I was just thinking for Chris and u to have a car.
it's a lawyer #
who do i call? chyrsler.. the lawyer? idk
I have no free flowing cash right now.. my payments end in Dec.
i want no payments for awhile
i usually end up with my big maintenance stuff on my Jeep around December...
the guy told me I'm 1000 miles away.. I told him Dec.. he goes ok good you're running fine anyway.
It's never ending money
Ok- what year is yours? I'll text my friend who works for Chrysler.
U shoulda got a Honda. Lol
It's an 08 Patriot
I like having a small SUV. and the CRV is #1 ugly, and #2 too pricey
thank you
It's not ugly anymore. The new ones are nice.
Pricey but they last.
I will let you know when I hear back from my friend. How did the GWAR thing go last night?
Ohhh that... yeah big fight
I'm sorry.
ehh it's ok. It ended last night so it's fine.
How did it end?
We fought before he went to class. I ended up dropping him off because I didn't want him using my car. I thought I would just go shopping but I didn't feel like spending money so I went home. When I went to pick him up he said he was sorry and I said me too.
I was PMSing really bad.... and he was saying horrible things on purpose
so it was both our faults
Shit. I feel like its my fault somehow.
If it wasn't this situation.. it would have been another
if it wasn't us talking.. it would have been some other situation
he always just thinks the worse
or that i'm using him
or that i'm going to go off and find someone who pays more attention to me
How would he ever survive an open marriage-
he would not
i mean on paper.. our talking all the time... kinda maybe not the most traditional thing
And I think.. well I don't want to hide it because that would be like I'm doing something wrong
but if I'm honest it bothers him
I asked him if he wants me to stop talking to you...
he's like no.. because then you will hate me.. and then end up doing something worse.
the thing is he gets that he doesn't put in effort when he should
idk... i'm fucked up too though.
He hates his jobs... and it's really upsetting him. The fact that he would like to do things with me (money or time wise) and that he can't is upsetting him. And then I'm chatting away with you, and I guess he wishes it were him..
But honestly, he needs to put himself out there to get another job.. and grow the fuck up and stop complaining at every step.
Sometimes I love that we are so different.. and other times I hate it.
Yeah. I'm doing well I thought with you. And just chatting and bein friendly and not anything else ya know. I'm making that effort to not go there sort to speak.
How are u fucked up?
That's the funny thing.. like it doesn't matter the context
he just assumes I'm F'ing you.
nice right?
Wtf. How? Lol
I'm all hormonally f'd up. Omg worst PMS ever.
Idk how. It doesn't have to make much sense I suppose.
That sucks. I'm sorry. Too bad you don't get horny instead of pms'y
I get horney the day before and during. Kinda sucks.
Eh wouldn't stop me if it were up to me.
Well I don't wanna screw things up for you.
Don't even go there with the not wanting to screw things up
I didn't tell you this so you would not talk to me or talk to me less
I'm not saying that I just wanna let you know that's all
I'll be extremely hurt if you decide to back off
I don't wanna. I like talking to you.
k
did you make it to the beach sat/sun?
Btw my friend got back to me. He said the sky slider roofs have some problems but not the regular sunroofs. He also didn't know of any class action suits- Yes. I drove down, and then went home. Lol
idk the difference between a sky slider and a regular
The sky is the manual one that's like canvas.
oh
idk there's stuff on the jeep patriot forums about the issue.
whatever.. i have to get it fixed. Rain pours in my car after it rains when I drive.
through the interior light
Just sounds like the sunroof drains aren't working for whatever reason.
No matter what type of car I own.. all cars have one issue or another.
nothing is perfect.
Nope. I know that. Believe me. I just suggest a Honda cause I would be able to fix it for you.
the new crvs are so round ... they look like a bubble lol
I would hate that though. Like calling you and having an issue with my car.
that you need to fix.
advice is one thing
recommending you to people is also fine
Nah. They look better in person. Much better than the older design
but like I don't want to take advantage of you
I don't mind it. And there's nothing wrong with that sometimes. Lol
or all the time
they don't have a 4wd crv?
it's awd or 2?
It's not selectable- it's awd as its needed.
and why would I want that?
Cause it's a good car. Good on gas, lasts a long time, low maint.
Other then maintenance I haven't pored that much money into my jeep
oh i guess some sort of wheel part or something last year
not a tie rod.. but like something like that
the gas issue hahaha
i get 21/24 which could be worse I suppose
That's not too bad.
i really do like my little jeep
Do you know any single guys looking for someone who aren't dicks? I have this awesome friend who is so pretty and she really needs to meet someone.
What's she look like?
She has long brown hair (though she sometimes puts a purple tinge through it). She's like 5'7ish I think. IDK because everyone looks the same height to me lol. She has really pretty eyes. She loves tattoos. She has a bunch. A really pretty mermaid piece on her side.
I'm not sure if her profile is open.. She's the one on the right in her profile pic https://www.facebook.com/laura.mcilwrath
She's cute-
her pics don't do her justice either .. she's really cute
She's also so real. She's not obnoxious doesn't play f'd up games with people.
She doesn't always have the best self esteem but she's working on that. She tends to meet guys who just don't treat her like she should be treated.
That's hard to find-her being real. No shit.
So she's the asshole dating type?
Like she goes for assholes-
Or has gone.
She doesn't date often.. She didn't date for years because of a really bad relationship that I have no idea about (a friend told me).. i've seen her date this other guy I know on and off for years. He is no catch but she liked him a lot. He's one of those asses who should never get a girl but gets sooo many for reason no one gets.
She's ready to move on. And she honestly needs to.
...cause he's an ass.
I've never really been attracted to assholes. so i don't get it.
I've dated guys who are or were assholes but they weren't that way to me. I mean they treated me fine, no lies, no games, just truthful. I knew the deal end of story. I wouldn't have dated them if they were that way to me.
i buy a crv and my payment goes up $100 a month with another 5 year loan. yuck.
Maybe lease then buy-? Or because you know me you might be able to get a better deal.
I want to be able to save up to not have such a crazy car loan in the future.
And I hope I wasn't an asshole.
You were only an asshole after we dated.
My payment now is $460.
I drive too much to get a good lease deal. I thought about that when my company moves to hoboken though
I also have like no free cash right now
like none.
Gotcha.
And how into tattoos is your friend btw. Lol
Never ask me to set you up with a friend.
that would just be complicated for me.
Ugh. I'm not talking about me.
I already know that rule with you. And I wouldn't do it anyways.
you did a lol.. it was about you..
What was about me?
the question about how into tattoos is she
ok lol. why did you ask?
Cause my friend is single good looking- and I wasn't sure if she was like wanting tatts or not. He's just starting to get work done.
Except for my friend who is my artist I'm the most tatted up person I know.
Lol
i dont think tats or no tats are a deal breaker
just that she likes hers
how old is your friend?
That's cool though. Chicks with tatts are very hot. He's younger. How old is she?
how young?
23 I think.
ouch yeah that's really young lol
she's 33ish I think
Well he acts older.
That's 10 years.. that's a big deal
Most girls won't date a guy 3 years younger lol
not for anything serious anyway
And even older guys i know that date younger girls.. their friends don't want to be around them as couples because the girls are obnoxiously young.
True. And true. But my friend is 41, and his gf is 25. But he acts like he's 12 most of the time so it works. Lol
yeah and I'm sure a ton of people want to be around them lol
Lol well not at first. But they have been together for about 6 or 7 years.
since she was 18?!
omg that's just creepy
Eh not really. It isn't if you knew them.
are they fun?
or boring?
They are fun- she works night shift at Passaic county women's jail.
CO
So the dealership wanted me to leave my jeep overnight but I can't I need it tonight.. so now I have to walk to go get it because it won't be ready till 6
walk 3 miles... ugh
They can't pick you up???
only till 4
i hope i have sneakers here!
Tell them they can keep it if they bring you a loaner car.
i need to look
I asked.. their loaners are out
i've known this since i've known the price.. it's up the road from here.. but i wasn't thinking because it's ON the highway
I have to walk backroads
can't walk rt 17
No one at work can drive u over?
they leave at 430
ghost town after that
some people stay later.. but im stuck waiting around a dealership for over an hour
i might as well take advantage of the exercise lol
That's better than walking.
in my dress
and platforms
Get a ride.
i walk every day.. and today i'm not due to dinner with my cousin
walking is like my gym
Bring ur iPad and play candy crush in the waiting room
i do it almost every day
i don't have an ipad
Not on 17 though.
Ok bring whatever. Lol
i can walk backroads
i'm on a hard level my lives will die in 2 mins
let me look and see if i have sneakers here i used to keep a pair for extra walking at lunch
i'm not walking 3 miles in platform wedges
Yeah that would suck.
2.5 miles maybe. But not 3.
ok yay! I do.. along with a bag of new socks lol
because I think ahead for emergencies I suppose
or because i forget things on a daily basis so I tend to have triplicates of things to keep everywhere
i need new sneakers for running
i hate when i need things all at once
i hate spending money
i also need all new fall clothes
all new clothes
because I have none that fit.
That's obviously a good thing.. but expensive.
Yeah. But a good thing.
i was hoping to be down another 10lbs before I bought pants
i was having too much fun instead I suppose
in 10lbs I'll be a size less, I'm sure of it.
and at a size up pant legs look too big.
So wait then.
i do better with skirts and dresses
and buy a pair of jeans, and 1 pair of black and 1 pair of brown pants
I agree. Lol
and some skirts dresses and shirts
lol
when it's cold i don't always like dresses
Yeah I could understand that.
i have on a dress from express today.. you know your favorite store lol!
Lol. They used to be good.
when you shopped there right?
Oh that- lol
I thought u meant now- for normal guys like me they suck. Chicks clothes they aren't bad.
oh.. at first I said fav because you ranted about girls who wear clothes from express
but then you said they used to be good.. so i joked about "that".
I forgot they had a guys line of clothes.
They forgot too. Lol
I don't buy guy's clothes so I don't pay attention
All the guys that shop there are super skinny. Yeah I don't think I would buy guys clothes. Lol
now i'm lost
U. I don't think U would buy guys clothes.
Autocorrect.
lol ok. well even for chris..
I don't buy clothes for him. I can't remember the last time I bought clothes for a guy.
hahaha actually i guess i do. I've done it twice.
random thoughts I haven't thought about in year or ever really lol
my guy friend is getting married at the end of Dec. I've met his fiance once.. at a wake. I'm invited to the wedding, but I hope i'm not invited to the shower. That feels awkward because I don't really know her.
Yeah that would be a bit weird. If u go get like some kinky lingerie or something crazy like that lol
lol that doesn't happen
i've seen that once and the mom buys it
showers are soooo boring
no one likes going
it's like yay for you here is all the stuff that we saw you are getting from your registry, now we have to watch you open it and play some stupid games that I'll either lose or win a candle.
they are torture
That sucks.
guys have it so easy
ugh now I want a new car
but only because i have that itch of having something new
I sent Chris to see if someone can take him
i don't feel like walking 3 miles in a dress
Nice. Good idea.
Even though I'd pick u up if I was around. Lol
you are on the other side of the state practically lol
but thank you
ok he got a ride yay!
i can take these sneakers off now lol
how's apartment hunting?
I haven't called anywhere yet- cause I hate talking to people but I'm gonna look some more tonite. I can totally get a lot of places in Newark though and Irvington like I told ya. Lol
what's your budget? I'll help you if you want. Besides talking to people, I sound super nice on the phone and people want to give me stuff haha. No seriously.. it will make me feel like I did this in my life .. i never really did.
so i don't mind.
There is an apartment complex a town or two away from your job. I forget what my friend pays but it's a 2 bedroom and its SUPER cheap and it's really nice. Like cheap for a 1 bedroom and it's a 2.
The only thing I wasn't crazy about is that there were a lot of indians.. but i bet that's because it's so cheap
It's in Pine Brook
Is it on Chapin rd?
yeah
There's a waiting list to get in there though apparently
Yeah I know that complex.
my friends got in because they lied and said the woman called them or something lol
Yeah those damn Indians have a million relatives. Lol.
Lol
that is what i thought sucked. But they pay i think $1300 or $1200 for a 2
I'm sure a 1 is like $1100 or so
that's like cheap in this area
unless you are in Newark
my friend is paying for a condo in Rockaway that's smaller then these appt.. they are paying $2100
All I need is a one bed.
in rockaway!
rockaway is a shit hole
I saw something in caldwell for about 1095.
that's good too!
depending on the space
I know. I should call.
i think i liked the crazy amount of space my friends have in pine brook
the bedrooms fit a huge bed and dressers
they have a small kitchen but they have a dining area and a really nice size living room
it's 2 floors
Well I can't get in there though.
i'm just saying
why can't you get in?
i was seriously impressed with the space at that cost and I wanted to leave my house haha
Lol.
U want me to get a two bedroom so I have a sex room for you. Lol
hahaha
nah.. you should get a 2 bedroom so if you ever NEED to get a roommate or if you want to set up a home gym or an office or have people over.
If I were on my own I would have a 2 bedroom. The additional storage space is also nice.
It comes down to what I can afford.
I know.. i'm not rich either
speaking of not being rich.. Chris is on his way back.. so I'm shutting down for the night... At least I got a good deal on a week long kayak rental for chris next week.
and off I go to sit in traffic home, then to hackensack, then to JC!
I just am looking forward to living alone with no roommate.
Ok. Have fun.
you do that already though
Not really.
if she doesn't communicate that is less then a roommate
not the point anyway.. ttyl!!!
Hi. How was JC?
Hey It was nice. My cousin and I got the chance to catch up.
That's cool- did u have a beer? Lol
I did Alligash White
Allagash
The brewery is in Maine and it's been on my bucket list to go there
Nice. I had a vanilla stout and a creame br‚à ö¬™l‚à ö¬©e stout on Sunday.
the Imperial ones?
My friend is really into beers.
The Creme brulee is awesome
Yes I believe they were. It was really good.
yeah most of their line is good
That's Southern Tier
They have a good milk stoudt
I LOVE milk stoudt
Left Handed is my favorite
I saw that too the milk stout but not sure if my friend was gonna like it. It was his bday the other day.
Their Milk stoudt is a little different then others
more hoppy IMO
That's the 2x one. I don't know if they have a regular one
or wait..
i'm confusing them because I haven't really been drinking them.
I like the 2x
It's the Left Handed one I LOVE.. but not the Nitro Milk Stoudt (which is also Left handed)
The Nitro is too much for me.
If you like a heavier stoudt young's double chocolate is popular
I tend to like a creamier taste, so the creme brule or an milk or oatmeal
I like the creamier more like a Guinness. I'm not a huge hoppy fan.
yeah I don't like hoppy or lemons
ugh that summer shandy beer I can't stand
My FAV ever is Allagash Victoria
It's a beer made with wine. It's really good. It's called a Sour Beer. I've had other sours and they taste kinda like vinegar. The Victoria is a little sweeter.
I was lucky enough to find it on draft at Max's Tap House in Baltimore.
If you are EVER in Baltimore you have to go there. It's in Fell's Point. Over 100 beers on tap.
I liked the summer beers. The first year I have actually liked them. I'll set check that out. And knowing my friend we may just take a random road trip.
I want to go to DogFish in DE.
That's a good day trip
If you are ever in New Hope.. there's also RiverHorse you can go to
It's in Lambertville in NJ
There's one up 23 too .. i keep forgetting the name
and what's even more exciting.. there's a brewery in NC that I will now get to go to again next week since I can drink. It's called Weeping Radish
I think it was on diners, drive ins and dives
but I went way before that
One of their beers was on a 100 beers to try before you die list or something too
If you need a good store for beer.. Rutherford WIne shop on Park Ave in Rutherford
and the guys who work there are really friendly and they will help you figure out what you might want if you have no idea what you are buying.
Yeah I've only gone to the place around the corner from my parents house. But they were ok. My friend knows a lot about all this so I'd just follow him. Lol
I go there for liquor and wine.
There are much better places for beer.
Yeah my buddy goes wherever. I'm not into it all like he is. I get headaches wayyy too easily if I drink the wrong ones. I just don't know they wrong ones yet. Lol
umm ok..
headaches if you drink to much? or headaches randomly from 1 beer?
in AC once a year there is a beer fest. it's good to go to one to figure out what you do or don't like
Like if I have maybe two- I can get a headache.
There is a cool event I'm missing on Sat This guy Russ opened his own Tattoo shop and is hosting a party to celebrate at Rebar. It's speakeasy themed and you are encouraged to dress up.
So some of my gf's are running around now looking for outfits.
I love shit like that
I dunno I don't drink much beer- or really much at all. Yeah that is pretty cool. Where's the shop?
Chances are my tattoo friend may know this guy Russ.
Saddle Brook I think
a bunch of my friends go to him
That's cool. I'm rather surprised you haven't gotten one yet.
$ but even more so I have issues finding the right artist
Yeah, for what you want.
I want a flower.. you wouldn't think it would be that difficult
lol
I guess it's because I struggle.. I love line.. but I don't want a lot of line work. I like the painting style.
Well yeah. It depends on the flower. Or the style of it. Things like that.
I know how tough it is.
then i see that style in a flower and I'm turned off.
Yeah. I understand.
Kim sent me a text the other day asking me to visit her in Germany. I don't have that many vacation days left
Wait- I thought she was in NC. ?
She works in NC.. lives in SC and is in Germany for 4 months for work.
she just sold her house and is having a new one built
so she left before it was complete
her son starts 1st grade and her daughter is a senior
her husband started a new job on the day she left for Germany
she's nuts
Damn.
Good for her though.
She's very career oriented
it effects her family life big time
it's beautiful out
i wish i was outside
Yeah i know that type of girl. Lol
lol
UGH.. I had someone reaching out to me all morning asking me when I had a few minutes. I didn't and was trying to squeeze this person in all day. Finally I find a time by shifting something else and he's like "I'm fine now".
Douche. Lol
Him I mean.
My old boss. He's a tool.
When I left my job I left a ton of info behind, but people still come to me because I'm apparently the only one who knows things.
This is untrue for 90%. The other 10% is stuff only I know but I documented.
I'm getting CC'd on emails when all someone has to do is lean over and ask the guy next to them.
I don't mind an occasional question.. but it's like every day.
Yeah that isn't cool.
omg. hahaha this is so him.. get this..
he IMs me and changes the subject from work.. to a question for me on how to fix his plaster wall
He's gay. He owns a co-op and has no idea how to do house repairs
Question for ya. That doesn't have to do with ur work. Or walls.
lol what's up?
So I have to sit down with Pam to let her know I want to move ally stuff out. Our 5 year anniversary is sept 27. I was gonna sit her down this weekend. Is that bad timing?
No.
It's 3 weeks away
it's bad if it's like a week before.. or that week. or after
so much better before
not that it's "better"
it's not as bad as
I'm not serving papers. I'm just telling her what she really already knows. But just hasn't heard me say it yet.
papers are just papers.. words are the harder part
Do you wear your ring?
No. I haven't really ever worn it. I can't with work.
ahh true. I took mine off when it got too big from the weight loss. I had it resized in the beginning of the summer... but I had it on and it was hurting at the gym so I haven't really worn it.
Her and I have talked about things briefly and it seems like she's already ready and knows I'm done.
But you feel ready to say the words to her?
I mean that's good that you acknowledge you have to say the exact words. I think other people would just elude to it. It's good to know without hope.
I don't want to hurt her. But I'm done getting hurt myself.
I think hurt is inevitable.
either way.
So you are going to talk to her this weekend?
or is that next weekend in Andy speak?
i'm teasing you
No I intend to tell her this weekend. Like This. Weekend. Lol
Meanie.
Lol. Well you like to procrastinate.
I think this weekend is good. Any closer to your 5 year date.. that's upsetting
I don't know what ur talking about lol.
ugh i'm so hungry. i ate lunch at 12 and it's too early for snack
maybe i'll have a coffee
i hate being hungry on my nights home
That will fill u.
a coffee?
i think it will. black no sugar
decaff or reg?
Doesn't matter. Coffee for me always makes me full.
i dont' know if i want decaff or not
decaff i just have to wait for my keurig to warm up
reg i have to go to the pantry and hope someone made fresh coffee
Lol. Gee. What's it take a min to warm up the kureig-? Lol
or a min to the pantry
i can't decide
i guess decaff so i take in more fluids today
no hmmmm
lol
What-? I told you. I'm behaving.
Impossible
I forgot I was supposed to go to the US Open today
Lol you forgot?
well i forgot that I was supposed to go. i didn't forget that I couldn't go
I have a weekly 9am meeting that I host every Thursday. I was out 2 weeks ago.. and I'll be out next week.
I thought it was too noticeable if I was out again.
Ohhhhh.
U shoulda went.
lol gee thanks.
It sucks because I asked my friend who gets tickets if she got them to let me know and I would go with. She ended up getting them for today
I don't like tennis that much- but choose that over work....ummmm yeah. That.
right
i don't like tennis really either but it would be cool to go
I've yet to go to either new baseball stadium
or the new football stadium now to think of it
Same here. But I've gone to the new giants stadium.
i've only been to one NFL game in the Meadowlands and it was a Jets game and I thought we were going to be murdered
I usually try to bring my brother to Buffalo for a Bills game. But one year we went to Jets/Bills here instead.
I haven't been to any games in awhile though.
Yeah. I have gone with Pam's boss a bunch of times and taken Pam cause her uncle has season tix. But that will stop now I'm sure.
ahh the the Devil's tickets too I guess
Yeah prob. However I got a lot of my own tix last two seasons. Email deals and such.
I used to get Mets tickets with my 2 jobs ago job
and Devils tickets
I miss that
Yeah that sounds nice. Lol
that job was great... sports tickets, lunches
happy hours
dinners
lots of fun
no more
I ended up with 2 $1000 face value Bills tickets in Buffalo
they were in this amazing catered suite that went way beyond any box I've been to around here.
and i've been in boxes a few times in the Garden in Yankee, etc
This was in the end zone and was like a crazy restaurant with awesome food and free alcohol.
My brother was pissed we weren't outside.. but when the lake effect snow happened he was cool with it
With a box like that- anywhere u can't be pissed about it. And for free!! He shoulda gotten a slap upside the head for that! Lol
yeah.. well that's him
that was almost 6 years ago.
i had just bought my jeep
I thought for sure I was going to die on the way home.. It was Christmas Eve.
I do boring things now i suppose
Nah. Just cause all the fun things are either illegal or cost too much. Lol
what's illegal and fun?
Driving fast- doin bad things while doin it. Things like thy.
That
that's illegal? lol
Ummmm no. Lol
lol. Almost the end of the work day! yay!
I think I'm going to go home a play computer games
seems like a mindless thing to enjoy for the evening
Seriously?
do you have another suggestion?
Ummmmm....
ummm what?
ummm is not a suggestion
You must not have one then.
Well I'm trying to behave.
I'm being real. Chris has class tonight so I have alone time
Ok- what about a nice walk or something like that.
In my ghetto neighborhood on the dark?
Ummmm. Well it's not dark how.
Now
So yesterday I played a video game all night.. and it was relaxing. lol
Stop.
Really?
I played Sim City lol
I didn't feel much like walking around.
i just needed to sit in one place and not think
Okay. I understand that.
If I do that and say watch tv.. i end up feeling depressed. like I sat around on my couch too long. I get restless.
But a computer game at least keeps my brain moving.
and I don't start crying over something I see lol
Um cry over something you see- that's not cool
like a movie
i get all emotional over a good movie lol
As long as its a good movie. Lol
I try not to watch shitty ones
Sometimes those are good too. Cause they are so bad. Lol
right that's true.
Either way- I'm glad u didn't cry.
lol! Thanks
I've got a headache coming on- and I think it might be cause I'm really horny. Lol
lol that has to be the strangest thing anyone has ever said to me
Lmao. It's prob not the reason but I'm more than a little pent up and my head is starting to hurt. So I just put the two together lol
I'm sure you'll find a way to relieve that
Cold shower after the gym is usually what works. Lol
well there you go
the gym sort of does the opposite for me
Makes u horny?
afterwards yeah
I think it's because I'm f'd up, lol. It's always when it shouldn't happen.. When I'm already a hot mess from the gym... when I'm sick.. when it's my time of the month, when I'm arguing with someone.
All that sounds fun. Like you just need some good hot sweaty angry nasty sex.
I'm never as turned on as I am during a fight
That's pretty cool. Lol
I've gotta replace a couple run flat tires so I can't reply- I just wanted to tell u-
k.. have fun
I would like more. Can u blame me..?
For not seeing me?
Or wanting more then me?
That was generic
For not seeing you. And I wanna.
But u don't... wanting and doing 2 different things.
Well u know I've had a lot going on as of late.
Maybe i take it the wrong way. I'm not asking to confuse you. I'm wanting to hang out platonically foremost.
Agreed. And we will.
You obviously do other things....yet won't have a drink with me. I see that as kinda crappy... but I give you the benefit of the doubtw
I don't want to give you slack....you have a lot going on.
I try to not think about it, but I'm also not going to let you disappoint me. No offense
Well I don't wanna do that either. In any way.
Lol
You seeing pam tonight?
I kinda wish I had a few more beers.
I wish I was having an orgasm right now. We all can't have what we want
Um wow- lol Thanks
No just in general not trying to be mean.
I feel for you. ..
‚ô° you even!
You'll get through this
U even too. Thank u
Talk to me tomorrow about it okay?
K night thinking of you XO XO XO
I would like more. Can u blame me..?
For not seeing me?
Or wanting more then me?
That was generic
For not seeing you. And I wanna.
But u don't... wanting and doing 2 different things.
Well u know I've had a lot going on as of late.
Maybe i take it the wrong way. I'm not asking to confuse you. I'm wanting to hang out platonically foremost.
Agreed. And we will.
You obviously do other things....yet won't have a drink with me. I see that as kinda crappy... but I give you the benefit of the doubtw
I don't want to give you slack....you have a lot going on.
I try to not think about it, but I'm also not going to let you disappoint me. No offense
Well I don't wanna do that either. In any way.
Lol
You seeing pam tonight?
I kinda wish I had a few more beers.
I wish I was having an orgasm right now. We all can't have what we want
Um wow- lol Thanks
No just in general not trying to be mean.
I feel for you. ..
♡ you even!
You'll get through this
U even too. Thank u
Talk to me tomorrow about it okay?
K night thinking of you XO XO XO
It goes. U?
excited.. getting my hair colored tonight
Nice. What color?
i'll leave a little early and hop on the train to hoboken.
then figure out how I'm getting home later lol
i want to do blonde and red
new hair color always cheers me up
you want to mention how last night went?
Last night went.
It wasnt too ugly. But not fun at all. I told her I'm not coming home.
Good that it wasn't too ugly...
Was she OK with that? Or did she try to change your mind?
if I ask too many questions or you really don't want to think or talk about this.. please just let me know.
I know you aren't just going to naturally talk about it... but I also don't want to press you if you don't want to be pressed.
I don't mind. She tried to change my mind. Explaining how this or that can be changed. And it comes down to there's not much more than what she's doing now that can be done. She just won't be able to be home before 8 much at all. The weekends are like every other unless she's away but that's not happening much she says. I told her its just tough for me to get home at 5 and want to spend time with someone around then and have what many think of as normal.
I'm not asking for the girl I'm with to be around me all the time but when I have hardly gotten the 'normal' life kinda thing it's hard not to want it.
Do you feel a little better after telling her?
Funny.. around this time of year people show up at my office to ask me how to make halloween costumes and do makeup lol
People set meetings with me.. no joke.. then start in on halloween stuff
it's a big deal that I HAVE to dress up here.
I'm like the only one who does it. I get paraded around the building and people take pictures of me
the best was i got fwd the email chain of OMG look at this girl at my job! and it was me! haha
I ended up on youtube.. and cnn
i was on tmz
i'm fucking famous lol
What-?? I didn't know that!
Can I have ur autograph ??
lol
I've been asked for it
so wierd.
weird
i wish i could make a living out of making cosutmes
i'm not making anything this year though
i haven't been feeling it too much
last year I ran away to disney to avoid it.. Though I dressed up as Witch Minnie.. that was simple though.
Bummer. With u looking so good I woulda thought u would do something a bit sexy kinda.
So anyways.. do you feel a little better now that you told her?
I really dislike slutty halloween
everything is like that..
I don't really have a body to pull those things off.. and even if I did.. it's obnoxious
Slutty Halloween is fun. Lol
Fun. Not obnoxious.
If I ever did have that kind of body.. i'd do a mermaid type thing
but I'm a long way from there lol
Not as far as u think. Lol
I can hide it well
Well u look damn good. Just sayin.
In clothes
nakedness is another story lol
I wouldn't want to be single right now I suppose
It's hard no to be self conscious.. but it might be a bit harder when you do lose weight
I do understand that in a different way-
And at least u aren't the other way- meaning u show a bit too much cause u feel so good-
Zachok was like that.
U should show more i think though.
I show my legs... i like them..
I show cleavage. I like it
That's good for me. what else should I show?
lol
Me too. And me too.
Your hips, and boobs. Ur hourglass figure.
I feel like i'm losing my hourglass which is bothering me
but i do prefer a shirt that is tight at my hips
it's just that I have a stomach and that sucks so it can't be too tight
i won't really wear a baggy shirt. I like when it tapers in. I do wear cardis but that's because I'm cold or because I don't do sleeveless.
I suppose. Lol.
Is love to see u in a corset.
I'd
I'd love to see me in one too
With thigh highs and heels.... If need be a high waisted skirt to mid thigh, and a blazer over the top that shows off your pushed up sexy cleavage...
all that minus the blazer. It's not 1983
i'd do a button down shirt... and ok maybe like a black office suit jacket
Office suit jacket/blazer....jeez Potatoes - potitoes.
Lol.
lol a blazer is like a huge ugly thing
lol
i think of like marroon with a label
Ohhhh. I was thinking small and one button thy kinda frames ur boobs. Lol
i get the idea of why you'd like that
So u didn't say if you feel a little better after at least telling her?
Well I kinda did. But I don't like hurting her.
I know:( not fun or wanted. But you know you can only sacrifice so much. You are important too.
Did you say I were just moving out or did u memtion divorce?
I didn't mention the actual word.
Yeah that's tough. Maybe she'll come around
Come around to what? How can I trust giving her the chance again. And me waiting another 6 months to a year until the next thing comes up and she's busy. If I'm gonna be alone I'd rather be alone.
Idk. ..I want to tell you to move fwd, but i feel bad doing so. That is your marriage. Its a big deal
I guess you are aware that you cant make it work.
You can love someone but being in love means 2 people workimg towards the same goal.
I feel bad. I want you to have a happy ending.
Agreed. But it's tough when I feel like I've worked so hard and haven't gotten much in return. Hmmmm happy ending huh?
Oh god... wow ok everything I say is perverted
It really is. I usually don't have to try very much. Lol
Lol that was pretty obvious. I'm so naive
I just want you to be happy
Lol. And yes. I wanna be happy too. And have happy endings. Lol
Me too haha
....with a corset on....lol
In your dreams I suppose
It has happened there- yes. Lol
I hope I looked good
Unreal! And you enjoyed wearing the corset, that I tied super tight....
Good. I'm glad u enjoyed the dream version
I def did. I don't think u would be like that in real life but...it was def hot.
Be like what?
Like a porn star slut...
Meaning looks or acts
Both-
Hey- don't get mad. It was my dream. Lol.
Not mad lol.
Just wondering
If that were rl..I'd be a porn star
Well just cause u look and act like one doesn't make u one. Unless u would like to be one....?
Lol what? Calm down
Hey- u said it. Lol
These conversations turn me on. Then I'm all excited. .and I am all over Chris. ..then he wonders why I'm that excited. .and gets upset.
U didn't do nothing wrong.
I know.
I can't win
I dont want to type out my life story or how I feel.. I just want to be happy
Maybe I'm fucked up Idk
It's not u in my option.
People tell me all the time how great chris is. ..how he must be the best hubby, how he's a great catch.
I asked him this morning if people ever tell him things like that about us or me ....
Never he said
Maybe those people are just really lame?
I hear it all the time. Its worse because he doesn't value himself
And I feel lost in his shadow
Well. He is quite a bit taller than u... But you have to value yourself. That's step one.
And I feel like my needs don't matter and I don't make an effort to do other things that I should be doing relationship wise
Like making dinner
Or cleaning
I just get really depressed
Well if u did those things for me I'd have u wear like little outfits to make the job sexy and fun so I could watch u. Lol
But seriously I'm sure u do those things when u can or want to. That doesn't build a strong relationship.
Even sex wise. I never feel into it.
Even sex wise I never feel into it.
Those things...not the sex part...are so important to him
I think I'm the opposite. Lol
The sex part is. ..its just a different convo
Battery low almost at hair apt and I need phone later to call for ride. Ill talk to u again soon
K. Have fun